and now what?

And now what?

Time goes by and I here I am today, moving forward as a person, a woman, while I continue being a wife, mother and housewife. With my nervousness and my doubts, I have decided to enjoy and live fully every single day.

In my past I had a career, I studied and worked at the same time, very successful, always undertaking and thriving but after I got married my priorities changed. I always had and have the support of my husband but I felt that I had to dedicate myself to my family so I stopped working, to become a wife, mother and housewife. I enjoyed it very much and I will cherish those moments with love, but time goes by and everything changes.

 And now that? Now that my children are not kids anymore and it is evident that my day-to-day help is not necessary, I want to come back to myself, to do what I like the most and what makes me feel fulfilled.

 The pandemic, with all the things it brought, good and bad, also gave me the opportunity to look within, to recognize, forgive and accept myself. To look straight ahead, to remember that all the past, is gone, even if I had enjoyed it differently, better, worse or the same, it doesn’t matter, it is gone.

Now I have Today, and it will always be this way. Bless today and all that it offers to me now: being able to enjoy, learn, love.